When life got sucks,what should to do!

Today I was fired,feeling not good!I have been in this company for 8 months,I do as a salesman,and then for
English Support,but the job of English Support is doing things more like a Search Engine Optimization.

The Boss said to me"You alway like this,doing things only follow your own methods,never ever thinking of the Team".Okay,that's the problem where I was wrong.Yes,I always want doing jobs in my way.But what I've done was right,I never thought I did wrong.

The first webstore was penalized by Google,and even my manager did not give the right answer to me.What's the reason why Google penalized the webstore.And how to do job more effeicently,to make more traffic from Google to promote our products.He just did the job by the past methods,never in a creative
way.I sat down near to him,how can you suffer a colleague watching videos during the working time?How can you suffering just throw all the jobs to you,and he just having the leisurely time to do nothing with the job.
How many times I want to quit but I have to live,I need money to survive.

I sufferring this for almost 2 month,and the boss said to me "When can I  see the outcome?".I feel pressure from the boss.I should never said to him "You should not ask me the question！".Yes,I did the wrong thing,but stragety is made by manager,I am just a executer.

Okay!I should be honesty,I should never complain about the other factors,there are several factors belong to myself.
1.I should never talk back to BOSS like that.
2.I should never complain to the manager that I could not done the job within just 1.5 hour
3.Maybe this is not the problem,but I never feel lacking of team spirits.I just do the job excellent.
4.I should be more talktive to all the colleagues.(In fact,I have good relationships with all the colleagues expect my manager.I know this is the right answer )

Hmmmm!Everything will all right with me.I konw life is difficult.But you should have fatih to believe,God is around us.God will see your efforts.And that maybe one day in the future,you'll sussess in the career.You will have a to be loved wife,a happiness family,with your mother,your father,and many many friends.

If everything you lost in ther world,you should never lose the faith,to forward the future,and everyone should believe this "Everything wil be better"

真他妈的累。。

每天都不知道在忙什么，忙的他妈的蛋疼，工作做不好，不知道是我的问题还是公司的问题。

我以后绝对不会做这样的傻逼事情，跟对领导，制定好策略比他妈的什么都好，这搞定我这执行人员什么也不是，居然问我效果呢？

我心里一直在想啊，这样下去什么时候是个头。站还没起来。。。没起来问执行人员？？？资源没个资源，每条链接都是个人来找，这里又要注册，那里有XXX，妈的，我又说，那好，我自己来做，我的意思是要把这个做好。。。这又理解成什么了。

3个商城两个人来弄，又追求速度，这玩什么啊。后来多一个人基本又是个残废。。。我这搞什么啊！居然又要出新站，出那么多站干吗。能把一个站弄起来就赚很多了，为什么要把精力都放在那么多量上。。。

Was it my fault

如此的清晰

我终于把自己的目标定了，这个目标定了有将近2个月，因为我一直在徘徊，一直在苦苦的寻找，然而，不经意间，我想我发现了，我知道自己将要做什么，虽然还是有点点模糊，我一直会寻找，寻找一个突破口，一个转折点，我想这个只是时间的问题了，1—2年的时间足以让我快速的发展，整体目标一旦定下来，一切都将是那么的清晰，我不是在自我安慰，这个是我许下的诺言！
我知道所有的问题所在了，我不想在经历失败了！

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